This blog is now 1 year old! Actually, I missed the true 1-year-mark in May but since my 24th birthday is tomorrow, I thought I could smear the two together.
What has happened in the last year? A new school, a new job, new friends, new repertoire, new performances, new failures, new achievements (because of the failures), new students, new… everything. At the same time, however, there are facets that do not change. The desire and will to improve, a love of music, and a passion for people.
I have to ask myself, after an entire year of publishing excerpts of my musical life online, what has this blog become and what is the purpose of it all? The answer is that I have no idea. Is it interesting? I don’t know... I think it is (which by no means necessitates that anyone else does…) and I am also aware that "blogging" is an inherently self-indulgent if not narcissistic activity.
What I'm attempting to do is open a window through which people can peek into my life. This is a filtered window of course but a window all the same. Now the question becomes, why would anyone want to look into my life? What makes me special? Not much.
Nonetheless I just keep writing. Normally, anything that is “undefined” or "purposeless" drives me insane until I find an answer or a reason. Perhaps it is not for me to decide “what it is.” In fact, I have no idea who actually reads these posts unless someone in the non-virtual world comes up to me and says “hey, I read your blog the other day.". All I get are stats from Weebly that say “you had 76 unique visitors on June 18th.” Who are these “unique visitors?” What do they think? Do they have opinions they would like to share or are there things they would like to hear more or less of? What is it that they see through the window or will someday the window become a mirror (cue Inception sound).
Anyone can always drop me a line at firstname.lastname@example.org. I think it would be fun to break down the “Fourth Wall” once in a while and have some reader participation. Then it could become a dialogue rather than a monologue.
Here’s a toast to my minor internet accomplishment and a majorly fantastic year. Cheers!